||[Sep. 4th, 2004|09:46 am]
some things cant be photographed.
i wish i had a car. woops wait. i forgot to mention that my car broke down. OF COURSE. duh. i mean, why wouldnt it break down? |
yesterday i woke up with my throat and lungs just hurting like crazy. more like my throat was really scratchy. not really hurting. my lungs still kind of hurt. and now my throat does hurt. weee. im hoping it was all that smoke at dollar bills or something. and it will go away soon. why is that place called dollar bills?
so yesterday i go to school.yadda yadda. i come home. i was super tired from two hours of sleep. so i just sat there on the couch. i actually wanted to fall asleep. i was like screw going to bonita to see shows. but eventually it became fivepm. sooo. i got in my car to leave. right after i crank up the car, my mom comes up the drive way. i roll down the window to tell her there is something wrong with my car. then all of the sudden it cuts off. then i crank it back up again. cuts off. then i TRY to crank it back up. but it wont. so. my mom took me to bonita.
i talked to someone i hadnt talked to in a LONG time. i now think i know why too. that was pretty cool. it made me feel a lot better about stuff.
then everyone just sat around waiting for people to play. robbie informed me of his better silly putty molding abilities. (yeah righttt) then finally people play. sam and patrick go to get me a little taco bell and apparently them a little sonic. i got worrieddd. they were gone for so long. and it was raining pretty harshly and well, sam drives fast. so yeah. then justin wouldnt leave me the crap alone to i poured my entire drink that i had only had two sips of, all over him. i was informed that was hardcore. whatever. it doesnt matter. he wouldnt leave me alone the whole night after numerous "leave me alones" and pushing him away. ugh.
eventually i eat my burrito. and i got pulled into a bad mood some how. so i just sat there eating. i didnt feel like eating. but i paid the money so i just did. then sam took me home.
i come home to find my computer has been comppletely erased of anything that was on it. i wasnt even given the chance to save anything to disk.
eventually i go to sleep. still soaking wet from the rain.
i wake up this morning and no one is here but my mom.
"where is everyone"
"they went to jackson to see claire. is that okay?"
"no, actually its not. why wasnt i invited? granted they going to see claire, who i see anyway, but it would have been with my sister who i NEVER see and have hardly seen the whole time shes been here..." (iwasntfinished)
"well you were asleep"
"well i was asleep? are you kidding me? you wake me up on a SCHOOL day when you KNOW i went to bed really late to ask me a stupid petty question but any other you WONT wake me up?"
then. then the screaming started. i didnt scream of course. because i cant ephing stand the stuff. esp. in the morning. esp with her. because all she does it just start feeling really sorry for herself. and she sits and pouts. and fake cries until i say "stop feeling sorry for yourself" and walks away. its so retarded. ugh.
oh yeah. and there was talk...or screaming about how im so ungrateful about my computer? excuse me? i didnt once ask anyone to fix my computer, minus rus and sams dad. which neither really did. and i sure didnt ask anyone to DELETE everything on my computer.
ugh. back to the "i wish i had a car" thing. i want to leave this place. god. thatd be bliss.